At the end of the rainbow

I often wish what would i see at the end of the rainbow.. because i never get to see the end. I guess it's like life. we always want to see things that are impossible. But in my own world, i hope that one day i will somehow find that pot of gold. I will always believe even though it's a myth, it's just haven't been proven.. :)

We will always keep searching for that pot of gold in our lives until we find it. Sadly, most people often give up after a while, i did too but now i'm going to continue my search. My pot of gold would be of peace, happiness and true love.. What would your pot of gold be??? ponder upon it ..

My story: My pot of gold

I guess it would be to go home to my Maker. I know it's difficult, which is why i'm still searching. Like what a lot of people have been saying lately,

"God never promised to stop our misery but He promised to carry us through it"

Times can cause a lot of damage, or the other way round in a person's life, depending which side you're looking at. I admit, it's sometimes impossible to look at the positive side, but somehow, things will straighten out, all we need is to CALM down and think it over.

Also, I'm looking for peace in the midst of this hectic life. I've been too busy lately and often i forgot the most important thing, to praise God that I'm still breathing, instead the moment i wake up, i will like, "Urgh, it's morning already?!!"

I have to throw this habit away.. hehe ..

If i continue to list all the gold i want to find, it would be endless.. I'm just... empty. That's how i feel now..

conclusion: can't wait to find that pot of gold.. soon ~~

Role play daY~

Today i had a role play for my assignment. it was fun, initially, but everybody got tired, eventually.. It was a fun and memorable experience though..

Below are the pictures, for memory....

(Above: One of the slideshow for the role play)

(Above: everyone was starting to get tired.. saw the cameragirl?? She's the best.. been holding the camera the WHOLE morning..)

(Above: casts getting ready for their show :D )

(Above: these are my script and also my friends as we are helping each other.. practicing~)

(Above: this was the first group.. Puppet show!!)

Overall, everything ended smoothly.. i was satisfied because we really did do our best.. Go TESL!!! :)

Proverbs on silence

If only i had read this earlier, all these wouldn't have happened.. huhuh ..

So, readers, have a read and ponder about it when your mouth starts to get itchy ..

In the multitude of words sin is not lacking,        

But he who restrains his lips is wise.  

                                                   Proverbs 10:19

          He who guards his mouth preserves his life,       

But he who opens wide his lips shall have destruction. 

                                                    Proverbs 13:3        

Whoever guards his mouth and tongue      

 Keeps his soul from troubles.           

                                          Proverbs 21:23          

 The heart of the righteous studies how to answer,    

   But the mouth of the wicked pours forth evil.      

                                               Proverbs 15:28  

There are more, you all can check in out on this website below:

http://solitaryroad.com/prs21.html

jogging in the rain

I had a dream, of jogging in the rain. The feeling was so soothing and i felt revived by the raindrop splashing on my face. i really feel so burden. I've made a too late decision, which is not to post any offensive blog message, but i guess it's too late..oh well, i'll have to move on, no use lamenting on the past. I don't want to talk about it.

So, let's start with my dream again. Hmm...

It was a weird dream, i was sleeping under a tree, it was already raining so you could imagine the ground was wet but i couldn't feel it. I heard a song that lifted my spirit and i jogged straight away.

I've been feeling very sad lately. I guess the road is my journey and I'm all alone, the road is curved and i can't see any ending beyond it.

But I just keep on jogging. The air was refreshing because the rain was now less and it was actually drizzling.

I guess the best translation is i have to walk this road alone. I must finish the things i have started. I know i have offended alot of people this week, I guess it's time to say i'm sorry.

I've been reflecting on myself and i hate that part of me that's too direct. I know it hurts people but i still go on with it, it's obvious they're tired of me already.

Well, now practically i have no one beside me because i caused something to happen. I want to feel sorry for myself but i can't, i've created this hell of a mess and i have to pay for my sins..

Like i say, nobody's perfect, which of course includes me..

and I didn't realise i have friends until i lose them. I will start from the beginning.

Return to the old me who always focus on her work and also korean dramas..

In fact, now i'm starting to catch up with the korean drama's my friend gave me a long time ago.

I don't want to care much about anything other than my work and dramas..

I will be much happier i guess..

and one thing for sure, i will learn to appreciate the things which i have lost after this hard lesson..

Remember: I must finish the journey I started, to those reading this blog, thanks for loving me the way i am, and once again i want to say i'm sorry if i have offended u in any kind of way..

From today on, this blog will be more on my life in general, not too in depth and also i will reflect more on the RAiNboWS in my life ..

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL .. :)

My idol

He's perfect. Just the person i'm looking for. Tall. Fair. Handsome. Athletic. and one could say he's everything that i want. Just today, i found the right word for him. He's nothing but an idol that i admire. Sad to say but that's the truth. and it hurts. I like him, but he's just too far away. It's like he's in Mars, and i'm on earth.

I guess I've figured it out too late. It really hurts me alot just to think about it. Well, i guess i have to move on with my life, but i will still like him anyway. Because he's the one for me .. :) I hope that one day he'll know that i exist, that's the least he could do right?? huhu ..

My story: It started with a glance

I always saw him around but i never thought things would get that far. I admit I had done something to make him notice me. But it's not what you think ok? It's stupid but naive.. But I'm not ashamed of it. I feel happy. I had achieved something in the whole of my life, like finally!! The incident was months ago, but I will never forget the day. Who knows what will happen in the future? I will never stop hoping until something comes up and can convince me to give up upon him. I just hope i wouldn't be the last one to know.

He's really committed to his studies and also family, or so i've heard. I really admire him because he's very serious and does not take anything lightly. He said he was not ready for any relationship. Though sad but i guess that's what i like about him too. He's honest. He doesn't fake his feelings like most guys would in order to get more girlfriends on their list.

So far, being single is fine but of course, occasionally i would envy those who have their partner with them when they go to the movies, because i'm either alone or with my girlfriends..

I guess i have to go now. Catch up soon..

This is Christiano Ronaldo, it's his idol, and now i like him too.. but somehow he also looks like him.. heheh ..

When U smile

I don't know why everytime i see you i will smile, and everytime you smile i will also follow suit. But I don't like you. I just see you as a friend, so it's normal right? But when someone talks to you, i feel annoyed, am i jealous? nop, i just get annoyed.. that's it. Am i denying what my heart is trying to tell me?? I'm not sure..

Today i saw u again. but I decided to act cool, how i wish i could be myself but i can't. hmm..

Anyway, today is really tiring because i prepared everything for the role play and yet it can't be recorded today just because someone had to get the promotion, i wish to forget about today so i won't be discussing it further.

Tomorrow there will be an exam or quiz on badminton, finished reading the notes but seriously, i'm not confident at all, so i'm going to have to depend on my common sense. Same thing, I lack common sense, i can't always think outside of the box.. = =''

These few days have been very stress and i feel my life is upside down, i feel lost, and i need someone to guide me .. fortunately i have a guide, who will never leave me like other people.. my Saviour.. God's words have never failed me till today. When I'm down, verses and scriptures suitable for me will just somehow pop out at the right time. To me, it's God's will, not coincidence, because i'm positive some non-believers will say it that way, like "you're exaggerating too much".

Well, only God and i knows.. :) I'd better get going. bye..

Something I need

Humans have so many flaws .. I find myself far from being fixed, it's like I'm damaged for good. But one thing that kept me going through each day is God's words. It's like food to my spiritual hunger. Now, in the midst of assignments and all things, I feel so depressed because of certain things which i can't openly discuss but i just feel hurt, why can't i ever go through the assignments easily? there must always be obstacles, different heads, procrastination.. I hate that part the most. but when i ask questions, i will become the BOSSY member. "Who does she think she is? stupid girl!" fine.. I didn't push but the work just never gets done, until the night before we are suppose to hand in the assignment! Can i conclude that every students on this face of this earth will surely face this kind of problem, if you deny my statement, then surely you are one of those lazy people! I try not to get mad, because it's bad for my health, but i can't help it. I've been tolerating this scenario for 2 years already .. It's already like a cycle of life ..

Today I'll talk about something i need. I need peace and wisdom because with that i believe i will not get mad and know the importance of taking one day at a time. Now, i simply can't, really disappointed in myself because I'm human!

Starting from today i will do my best and depend of God's love for me. There's so many semesters more to go before i graduate so this is just the beginning.. Patience Sophia ~~ good night everyone and God bless in this assignment month .. :)