Have you ever fall in love before? I have had one but I don't consider that as love because when I think back it was quite foolish because i was still so young at that time. There's this guy, I admired him at first but as time passes by, the feeling developed into something more, i started liking him, a lot. I tried to change myself so that he would somehow notice me. And also improve on my studies. But nothing had changed and now I seldom see him because he's so busy and yea, we're really far apart.
Then I watched this Thailand movie, the story line was exactly like mine but of course it's fantasy and they ended up together because the guy also liked the girl as well. As for me, that's a different story. Recently, I've just denied my feelings towards him, saying that I've forgotten him already. but seeing this movie made me reconsidered what i've said, did i try hard enough? Am i giving up too easily? I don't know. I'm really confused right now. I dislike feeling like this but i guess that means that i still like him. but the thing is there's nothing i can do because he doesn't even know i exist, well actually he does but he doesn't know who i am. :) It's a long story.
Now I know I should concentrate on my exam because it's this coming Thursday and I still haven't finished revising.
So, what is the next step? I have to wait for his response then, which i have been, it's been almost 3 months now since I've been waiting.. Well, patience is golden.. I admit I'm already giving up and feeling VERY disappointed. But God has His own way, maybe he's not the one..
I wonder what he's doing now ...
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