Life's not a bed of roses, "thorny" roses, maybe.. not if you have a smooth sailing life, then something is wrong. Well, maybe you are an optimistic person..
I'd rather stick to my books, my own world..
In my own world, no one is able to hurt me and I'm the person that makes all the decisions.. No one can harm me or stab me, because it's MY world, MY story..
In the real world, people change too fast.. It's scary, in just a blink of an eye, everything can change.. Nothing is permanent.
I don't put much hope in the real world.. It's broken and sick..
I only put my hope in the One that created me..
I've once put my complete trust in people, but they took it for granted, they threw me aside and isolated me..
But God is great.. I survived after almost 4 and a half years.. One more year to go and I'm out of this place..
But I am grateful because this place has taught me lots of things..
People cannot be trusted and those closest to you will be the person that is going to hurt you the most.
I was stupid and still am..
I now am grateful that I am alone because in this way I won't get hurt..
However, there are some who treated me well, I am grateful for them, but that's that, I can't let anyone into my heart anymore.. I've been through too much, the scars in my heart aren't fully healed and I doubt it will recover fully..
I am also grateful for my family, though sometimes even they can't understand me.. I must stand on my own and I am MOST grateful as the Lord is always by my side when i am at my weakest point.
For that, I can't thank God enough, I know until the day I die I won't be able to repay all the kindness and mercy that He had showered over my life...
This is how I feel when everything just seems to go wrong, even the weather is crying with me :'(
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