Alone, for a reason

Like any other days ...

(Sometimes i really feel like this, we can't deny it. But now i know that God is always watching over me. Amen!! no copyright intended, just sharing)

Had my exam today, the last paper is on Wednesday and later its home im going!! Everyday is a challenge, it has a challenge of its own. I, am still trying to control my temper, its unpredictable but as long as i could keep it cool i will. So many things have been going on in my mind lately. I keep getting hints that my mr. right is coming any time now. Of course, when things like that happen, we will be out of our mind thinking about when, where, how and why and so on. But the more i think about it the more crazy i feel. Because till now nothing happened. Once in a while i will get this feeling of loneliness and slowly fall into depression. But ever since i did my devotional daily and reading verses that could help me cope with this 'sickness', i began to feel better, and trust me i had done a lot during my past time. I cooked, knitted, read books and even went out solo. It felt great and challenging. Most people won't agree with me going out alone but i feel a need for it, i feel so free to do and go wherever i want to. But i guess the greatest thing is to know that the Lord will never abandon us. I read from a site stating that if we feel lonely and depressed this is because there is something wrong with our relationship with God. Hence, if you are so desperate to be in a relationship just to get away from this feeling, the site suggest you take another deep long look with your relationship with the Lord. I did and i felt better, i think it's because i always take things for granted. Now, my free time instead of spending it by thinking negative thoughts i will exchange it with useful activities and also thinking about the Lord's goodness. There is a reason we are still single. I've always dreamt of serving the Lord but i don't know how, but i guess now i know, i need to be obedient and this time, REALLY trust HIM. Many times i have swayed away. Seriously, i did a lot of nonsense things just to spend the boring weekends away. 

Tips: Search the web for a list of things you should do when you're free, trust me i've tried many of them and its a great way to get all those negative thoughts away from you. 

For now, i feel much comforted than i had in weeks because i know i'm blessed and that the Lord has a purpose in doing everything. Like what He said in Jeremiah 11:29. :) Have faith in Him and be amazed as He works wonders in your life today!!!