Will it end

Yesterday i read something from a magazine but it really struck me in the heart and soul. I felt sad, broken, but I've still managed to live through it. so i think i should be grateful. But here's the extract:

"I'm in the crowd,

but I'm an outcast"

Then I remembered myself always saying this,

"I'm happy outside,

but empty inside"

I know i promised not to be negative, but things like this has been disturbing me again for the past few months. Then I remembered something

"You can't hide behind a smile forever"

But I dont hide. I show how i feel, sometimes when i can't take it anymore. I'm still trying to manage my anger though.. I want to think optimistic .. so.. no BUTs for me :)

I have a supportive and family who love me for who I am, and a few wonderful friends who understand me no matter what I've done, i feel like s*it, but I'm making up for the mistakes i've done, still in the process .. very difficult to achieve due to my temper ..

Anyway, I guess i managed to stop myself from writing something foul .. that's an improvement I hope ..

Currently listening to my favorite band song, JYJ, they used to be in DBSK, that's why I'm also sad, but i pray for them also ..

The song is entitled "In Heaven" .. such a sad and touching song .. bye for now.. :)