Crazy with crocheting again

During my teaching practice, there was this girl who really admire my crochet work because I made my own pencil case and also water bottle holder. So I was inspired to make something for her. The famous trend was or still is the minions from Despicable me. The one i made for her was horrible due to time constraint.
But when she received it, I tell you nothing can compare to the joy in the eyes. I feel so happy and embarrassed at the same time because I should have given her a much better one.
Personally, instead of a minion, I think mine looked like a 'banana man".
So, after teaching practice ended, I searched the net for patterns and found one, I edited a bit here and there to suit my own liking and made one minion. It looked weird also but my friends thought it was cute. Oh well, below are the pictures. And after that I also made another one, "Nyanko sensei" it's from a japanese anime and I really love it, but as usual the outcome wasn't what I expected. I feel like I'm Doctor Frankenstein.
See it and believe it...

After finishing the two projects, I just felt that I need to do something else.. So I came up with the idea of making key chains for my bag.. So i just made my own pattern and wala... :D

Learning from mistakes

Actually I never learn from my mistakes, that's why i keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over again, I am aware of it but i can't stop it from reoccurring.
But there are a few things that I've learnt though:
1. I am my worst enemy
2. I really need to stop using all my strength and start to depend on God
3. I am hopeless without God
4. All in all, I need God desperately

Sometimes I feel Him, but there are also times that I feel I am just bluffing myself. I am sick and tired of everything around me, i want it all to stop so that i can have a rest, but nothing good ever happens, not to me anyway.

As usual I went to search for inspirational quotes to lift my spirit, then I found a few. I know all things happen for a reason, but i just can't accept it because i just refuse to stand corrected!! So I learnt it the hard way..

Dear Lord, please continue be with me.. Amen..

Mural project for the school

Doing my practicum phase II in SK St Joseph Penampang for 2 months. Came up with an idea to make a mural to contribute for the school.
 Below are some of the pictures: Enjoy~~

(Painting the base, of course I did it with my partner, this was day 1) 

(Day 1 - finished painting the base and just let it dry first) 

(Day 2 - painted the cloud and coloured it, there will be words on it when it dries)

(This was the draft I made - Just a simple mural) 

(The final product on Day 2) simple but I really like it :D ) 

After a while

Haven't been updating for quite awhile now.. Bust due to many things..
But hye, now it's already September..
Currently doing my practicum phase II for two months and next week is already the final week, time really flies!!
Been under the weather but praying to get well quick because there's so many things I have to do..
Rented a car with my coursemate, that's why I've been busy exploring places while I have the chance..
Life is short and we should enjoy it to the fullest.
Below are some pictures of my pupilss that I'm currently teaching, enjoy :)

 (Year 2 pupils, naughty but cute)

 (Y 2 pupils also, just look at their mischievous faces)

(Aden -- answering a question also year 2)

(my year 3 pupils..)

( The school's kokum week - games..)

(The fill in the water in a bottle game, very funny and challenging~~)

That's life

Sometimes in life, there comes a point when you say to yourself, "Just give up".
It seems like nothing you do ever seems right, everything around you seems bleak and hopeless.
No one cares what happens to you, unless you're in their way.
Time doesn't wait for anyone, it goes on and on and if you can't catch up, you'll be left behind.
In my heart, I keep waiting for that something, which I myself do not what is it actually that I am waiting for.
A ray of sunshine, perhaps, to warm this cold dark heart of mine, but nothing good ever seems to come in my way..
All I get are obstacles, storms, things that demotivate and crushes my spirit. I don't want to give up but I can't see things in the positive way anymore.
Well, the only thing i can do now is relax and wait before I asssume my journey.
I'm tired in all ways, name it, physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and just about every other things.
So many things have been going on inside my mind lately and I'm beginning to question myself whether or not I'm losing it. I hope not of course. I guess "stress" is normal nowadays.
I just don't know where to go now..

No one will ever know how you feel because they are not you. The word "empathetic" is just a word.
We all know most of the times WORDS can't even express how we are feeling.

At times like this, I try to stop myself, go to a quiet place (if i can), and just think and reflect, where did I go wrong. Why is everyone doing what they're doing? And also, search for Him.. I have to admit, it's hard, because most of the time, He's quiet.

I was never a normal person to begin with. Well, of course it depends on how you define 'normal'. I don't like things that normal people like, I used to have lots of friends, but after all that had happened, I feel safer to be alone. And, I don't talk much, unless it's something I like. And I seldom smile, which brings people to think of me as a snob and other things, as if I care.

But well, LIFE's like that. It's like a roller coaster, i guess now I'm at the bottom. Can't say I blame anyone, I'm just too sensitive..
Hoping for a better tomorrow..God bless~~

Happy fasting

Today Muslims are starting to fast. I decided to give it a try and this is my first day.

Woke up 4am to eat, cooked rice the day before and ate it with sardines and drank plain water. After that I went back to bed. The whole day I didn't eat anything. It wasn't something new because most of the time I don't eat much. Only in the afternoon. Time passed by quickly and I'm lucky because there wasn't much to do in class today.

I waited till 'buka puasa" which is around 6:30pm. It really was a good experience and tomorrow I'll be continuing it again.

(Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends) :-) 

The boy who cried wolf

I really love this story because it taught me a lot of things.

First, don't lie if you want others to believe in you..

Second, fooling people is not a good thing to do..

Third, at the end you will receive the consequences..


I thought everyone should know this, i mean, if you want to be a criminal, be a smart one, don't leave any prints or whatever. However, no matter we do, we can't hide it from that one person that knows everything, the one person that, to the extent where He knows what we are about to do even before we could think of it.

Let me tell you a short story, which is a true story and from here i really hope that everyone will be careful for what you are doing, think carefully before you make a fool of yourself, like the Boy who cried wolf.

There was once this guy, let's call him Zee. Zee is a nice person to begin with. But as days went by, he seldom attended class and would say he came up with something, flu, fever, broken limb, you name it! At first, everyone believed in him, me included. But then matters got worse, he started to come to class as he please and when there were class events or occasions, he would declare himself not fit to join in. Well, as you all know, his actions prolong and in the end, no one trusted him anymore.

Please don't tell me that someone is so damn lucky to be sick on such selected days. Maybe sometimes but ALL the time?? Something smells fishy here. Zee was also a clever person. For being absent always, you must present a solid reason, and with that I didn't know how he came up with MC's just to get him off the hook, and of course they were all bought. I wonder who's the doctor? No offense intended.

Just now, all hell broke loose. I'm a coward, i only say things in my heart but not out loud. I don't want to get into trouble. But i understand the feeling of the person totally. I've been working together with Zee for a long time and I really understand how he's like and so on. That's why I don't know whether i should follow my heart and trust that he might be doing all these for a reason or my brain and declare myself stupid for trusting a person that has broken his promises that he made so many times. When i'm mad, i will follow my brain. but the heart is soft, and thinking of "What if"-s ...

Well, that's the story about Zee.. I feel sad and disappointed. I thought he would change, because he DID show some signs of changing, for the better, but then now, all of that just seemed to evaporate...

We all know that only God can judge, so help us all Lord. Show us the way~~