My focus this year

Hi again! Actually i wanted to sleep but i feel like i needed to do this entry. It's about what i want to focus on this year. Of course, there are a lot of things which i need to focus on, but this year i feel especially sure of the one thing that i want to focus on.

My Faith.

Yup, i want to renew and strengthen my relationship with the Lord. Because i have experienced a lot last year, His presence was so great, He showed me the way to do things right, He protected me when i needed Him the most, when no one could be with me. He heard all my complains when i'm weary and He gave me rest when i was too tired to do anything, and most of all, He blessed me in my exams, and practically everything. I could go on forever on what the Lord had done in my life. But most of all, i also experience this roller coaster ride where sometimes i feel He's here and sometimes He's like, gone. I want to know more about the Lord who had sacrificed His own son for us sinners. Hence, this year i began going to Bible study classes, and also i increased the time of my devotion, unless when it's too late, but i will not miss reading the Good word of the Lord. My life changed drastically after i accepted the way that the Lord wanted me to live. I'm not perfect, but now my aim is to slowly obtain and ask the Lord for the fruits of the Spirit. 

This year I'm going for my teaching practice where i will be teaching in a school for one month. I'm so nervous but if the Lord says that, Nothing is impossible, then i just have to trust Him on this. So far, the lecturers are doing an excellent job in getting us ready for teaching. There are so many things to absorb at one go. Hence, i'm so great that it's Friday, so i'm going to kick the sack soon. I didn't even have my afternoon sleep thanks to some meeting that i had to attend just now. In the end, i went to the park with my friend to refresh my tired mind and soul. 

Love

What is love really? i guess in the end i still don't know much about it. If there is love, then why must we hurt each other? The Lord had said that the most important commandment of all is to love your neighbour and yourselves. I guess in this world, there are not many left who could love, they only care about themselves and they don't bother about others. They just want to be successful in life and they don't mind destroying other people if that's what it takes for them to succeed. I've met a lot of people of that kind. I would certainly like to meet the person that could love God more than himself. Speaking of which, i was just thinking about the special person i would be meeting once the timing is right. I want a man who is matured but then at times or could make my laugh and make me feel appreciated. Also, he must be keen in reading the word of God, not just for the sake of reading but with understanding and love God more than me, with that we could both serve the Lord with Love. Other small but important things including allowing me to do things i like, like my own hobbies and we would share some common interest so that we would not bore each other out so fast. Sorry for getting carried away, well, this year i just want to focus on the Lord, who knows the Lord's timing? i can only pray and wait patiently. I guess I'd better go now. Bye good night and God bless~~~

Have you ever felt this way?

 Sometimes i really feel so down and blue. It just happens, i also don't know why and how it happens. There was one day, a Wednesday, there was this sports meeting, so as a senior, we were told that our job was to facilitate the juniors. So i went down, but there was no one with me. And i felt so lost in the vast sea of people whom i don't even recognise! I entered the room and everyone looked as if they have just seen an alien, i really hate that feeling, that's why i don't like congested areas and people whom i don't know. Suddenly my friends arrived and immediately i jumped out of the scary room and joined them. Wasn't i relieved to be out in the open, and i was thinking to myself, what the heck was i doing in there, sitting in the first place anyway? So, feeling much better, i stood outside as the others conducted the meeting. After staying there for a while, i went back with my other friends. 

What i wanted to say here is that sometimes in living our Christian life, we will be faced with problems like this. But then, if you try to change your mind set, like i tried to when i was in the scary room(afraid it wasn't much of a success), and think of it as a challenge you must face. This is because later in life, by hook or by crook you MUST face the things you see as problems in your life, if not you will not be able to move on because that fear will always be with you no matter where you go and what you do. 

The Lord never intended for us to go through all this suffering, but He did promised us one thing, that He will never leave us alone. Hence in this  new year, let us reflect on how the Lord has helped us in facing our problems in the past year(2012). With that acknowledgment, we can be braver and face the problems and challenges we are facing or about to face this year. 

On the other hand, being alone is also a good thing because we also need to have time to do our own things, sort our thinking, and be a better person. 

Most of the time, i love spending time on my own, i can say that i'm actually an introvert person. But i don't really care about it because that's what i am. Lately, i've been attending Bible Studies class, at first the whole situation was awkward! I was so shy that i couldn't even look at people, i had my head looking downwards until my neck hurts but i didn't care, i thought that i wanted to stop going altogether. But the Lord has His own ways. After that one session, my thirst to know more grew more and more. And just today i attended the class and it's the 3rd time already, i go there for a reason, to know more about God's word. With the end of every lesson, i learnt so much and i really want to learn more. At night before i sleep, i still do my devotion but an addition to it is that i will also read the Bible, old and new testament. I will try to interpret what it means and how i can apply them to my daily life. 

There are so many things that i need to learn so i must be strong and not be afraid of being alone because physically i might be, but Spiritually, the Lord and my guardian angel is always there with me. So, I AM NOT ALONE!!

Bye now, i hope to have more time to update on my spiritual journey.. :) God bless~~

Happy New Year 2013

Hi all, i want to wish you all a very happy new year, hope it's not too late..
Anyway, i got back safely to my campus and officially started my 3rd year of degree, now it's the second week and almost ending.
So far, the stress is slowly easing in with all the assignments coming in, i pray i can handle it with wisdom and patience.
I changed my seat this year so i hope that everything will improve this year too, not that the seating place really matter anyway. I just wanted a change of scene.
My new year resolution is to be a better person that trusts in the Lord in all i do.
Currently, i'm addicted to Mandarin dramas, no longer korean dramas. I found them very interesting and funny, now i'm watching two dramas in sequence, the first one, 离婚前规则 (rules before a divorce) and also 真爱找麻烦(true love looking for trouble), they are both really good dramas, i watched them for a reason, i want to know more about LOVE, and also learn from their mistakes, it's like very motivational for me.
Here are the pictures, i really love the characters in the dramas..

(This drama has a total of 84 episodes, currently i'm still downloading it, it's so difficult to find the completed drama in stores.. the soundtracks of this drama is very nice too, I really love all the songs, it's very meaningful and pleasing to the ears)

Well, i've got to go now, will write soon... BB

End the year 2012 Holidays Part 4

I wanted to post about Part 3, but due to my laziness, oh well... Part 4 is about what i did during December. Time sure flies very fast.. During December, I baked a lot, and also did a new knitting project which i never tried before and never thought i could succeed either, but the Lord is great because i made with for a purpose. :) Well, pictures speak a thousand words, here goes nothing...

 (This tree was given by my late grandma, imagine how old it is, missing her.. When i was small, it looked so huge, but now... hehhe..)

 (Muffin time!!! MY first time making muffins, came out alright, nice..)

 (I love the muffin's batter, it was so smooth and creamy)

 (The end product, MUFFINS!!! Love baking at home, feeling like a good housewife.. just kidding, DIG IN)

 (As i mentioned, my very first attempt to knit a sock, i was like hesitating for more than two years, didn't know what got into me one day, i just decided i must do it, for my grandpa... I love him so very much and i wanted to make something for him with my own hand, after all, i got this gift of knitting from him)

 (This was the beginning part, sorry because the pictures are jumbled up.. At this stage, i was near tears and on the verge to give up because i really don't know what i was doing, twisting here and there, and using Double Pointed Needles may SOUND COOL, but it's still quite difficult, especially if you get mixed up as in whether you have finished one round or not, urgh.. :) )

 (My FIRST attempt to make a cheese cake, all because my youngest sister nagged me until i couldn't stand it anymore, Yeah, i know it looks horrible, but then its yummy!!! Very cheesy and the cake is soft and nicer after being refrigerated.. Oh, The middle part had to be cut out because it was so black and some part wasn't baked enough, hence the hole in the middle)

 (Started the project on the 22/12/12, Finished it on Christmas Eve, just in time, looking good so far, but if you look close enough, there will be holes here and there, missed stitches .. hahahah)

(This is the finished sock, only one side, and starting to make the other side of the sock, starting to get the hang of it, though, fun but then tiring to the hand.. )

I guess, this is the final part of my holidays for 2012, it was altogether a great holiday and i really appreciated the time spent with my family, though i cannot meet up with old friends, being at home was the best thing i could ever wish for. I hope that there will be more good memories to come, now i need to concentrate on the New Year, and be strong and brave and put all my trust in the Lord. Amen.. 

See you soon and thanks for viewing.... 

Year end holiday 2012 story Part 3

I'm back again, so this time i would concentrate on my baking skills. I'm not a pro but of course i hope that in the future i would be one. My one and only inspiration would be my aunt from my mother's side. She is a pro in baking, regardless of others comments. I love all the food that she bakes. I wanted to be like her but of course it takes time and also effort and also heaps of encouragement. So, this holiday i wanted to improve on my baking skills, all my equipment were mainly given by her as my Christmas presents, and also i started to buy some as my collection. During this holiday, i bake different types of cakes, made pizzas, cupcakes and also biscuits for the coming Christmas .. Below are some pictures i took, i even made my first icing in the history of life, and i won't forget the moment my cake tasted like sponge because all this while my cake was either too hard or too oily and so many other things.

( I also made buns, those are butter buns and hot dog buns..)

(This is my very first icing, royal icing, i only found out later, VERY late, that it's non-edible, my gosh, thinking i almost poisoned my own family, but luckily we're all strong and still alive, so i guess i'm not going to make this icing ever again, sorry!!)

Well, i guess that's the end of Part 3, but there are more pictures, so there's also be a Part 3 II.. Part 4 is coming soon, it's about December :) Look forward to it..

Year end Holiday 2012 - Part 2

This entry will be a part two of what i've done throughout November's holidays .. hehe..
I did what i loved most, knitting and crocheting!!!
Oh yeah, i decided that since i should treat myself to something new, i mean like, new year new items.. So, i crocheted a pencil box for myself, early Christmas gift, of many others which i will be giving myself, LOL

 (a rainbow crocheted pencil box in the making, hehe)

(this is a crocheted pouch, a small red one for coins and a bigger one for handphones maybe, or a cute bear.. heheheh)

I guess this is the end of Part 2, Part 3 will be about my baking experience.. :) do enjoy~~

Year end holiday 2012 story Part 1

Hi there. Since its already december i've decided i should recap what i've done since my holiday started in November. Alot of things happened and all of them were memorable, things i could never get back no matter how much i wanted it to, hence i will recollect all my good memories so that i will not forget any single moment.
Here goes, for the part of November, i was still a little lazy, so i like to get up late, but then i had to cook lunch for me and my sisters, it was fun but most of the time i nagged alot.. urgh... but i guess cooking was fun.
Then during the weekends i would go out with my mom and sisters. My dad usually goes back to his own kampong where he always goes to his garden with all the fruit trees and all that, i sometimes go there but i don't really like it because there are too many swamps and also leeches, ewww...
I think this is the holiday where i bought the most books and also read the most books. But i have to say my most favourite book will be Vampire Academy. :D
I really love it!!! The series consisted of 6 books but i only had five, it was my aunt's books, and i finished reading it by 7 days. The story was so addictive, currently, i'm reading the final book online, man, i really can't wait to finish reading it, i love romance and also adventure. :) Here's some pictures of what books that i've read during November... 

That's the end of Part 1 .. can't wait to write Part 2. :)