Sometimes i really feel so down and blue. It just happens, i also don't know why and how it happens. There was one day, a Wednesday, there was this sports meeting, so as a senior, we were told that our job was to facilitate the juniors. So i went down, but there was no one with me. And i felt so lost in the vast sea of people whom i don't even recognise! I entered the room and everyone looked as if they have just seen an alien, i really hate that feeling, that's why i don't like congested areas and people whom i don't know. Suddenly my friends arrived and immediately i jumped out of the scary room and joined them. Wasn't i relieved to be out in the open, and i was thinking to myself, what the heck was i doing in there, sitting in the first place anyway? So, feeling much better, i stood outside as the others conducted the meeting. After staying there for a while, i went back with my other friends.
What i wanted to say here is that sometimes in living our Christian life, we will be faced with problems like this. But then, if you try to change your mind set, like i tried to when i was in the scary room(afraid it wasn't much of a success), and think of it as a challenge you must face. This is because later in life, by hook or by crook you MUST face the things you see as problems in your life, if not you will not be able to move on because that fear will always be with you no matter where you go and what you do.
The Lord never intended for us to go through all this suffering, but He did promised us one thing, that He will never leave us alone. Hence in this new year, let us reflect on how the Lord has helped us in facing our problems in the past year(2012). With that acknowledgment, we can be braver and face the problems and challenges we are facing or about to face this year.
On the other hand, being alone is also a good thing because we also need to have time to do our own things, sort our thinking, and be a better person.
Most of the time, i love spending time on my own, i can say that i'm actually an introvert person. But i don't really care about it because that's what i am. Lately, i've been attending Bible Studies class, at first the whole situation was awkward! I was so shy that i couldn't even look at people, i had my head looking downwards until my neck hurts but i didn't care, i thought that i wanted to stop going altogether. But the Lord has His own ways. After that one session, my thirst to know more grew more and more. And just today i attended the class and it's the 3rd time already, i go there for a reason, to know more about God's word. With the end of every lesson, i learnt so much and i really want to learn more. At night before i sleep, i still do my devotion but an addition to it is that i will also read the Bible, old and new testament. I will try to interpret what it means and how i can apply them to my daily life.
There are so many things that i need to learn so i must be strong and not be afraid of being alone because physically i might be, but Spiritually, the Lord and my guardian angel is always there with me. So, I AM NOT ALONE!!
Bye now, i hope to have more time to update on my spiritual journey.. :) God bless~~
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