Christmas spirit

Ha .... Christmas is around the corner.. Can't wait to go back.. The spirit of Christmas is so strong! I really miss my family right now, their warmth and love is enough to melt my cold heart. Can i skip my finals exam?? heheh..

Now i'm doing my revision, but i'm also listening to Christmas songs already, some in the process of downloading. Now it's TVXQ's Silent night.. Really love it!! Been repeating the same song for three times now .. Went out yesterday after church and i saw this huge tree so i asked permission from the cashier if i could take a picture of it. Here it is. so lovely ..

now my Christmas mode is on. God bless me for my coming exam .. Bless everyone on this blessed season ... :)

How it feels to belong

Feeling wanted is the most important thing a person wants to achieve. Otherwise, we feel isolated, rejected, unwanted, and so on. For me, feeling wanted is very precious. It gives you a reason to continue living, it gives you Hope to look forward to another day, it is able to carve a smile on your face despite how bad the day might be.. I'm blessed because my family is always there for me. So far, they have been the ones who are really supporting me from the back. If not for them, i don't think i can carry on to see another day. They are the ones with you through thick and thin no matter what situation you face. Conflicts occur, of course, but like they say, blood is thicker than water. Therefore, appreciate your family because you never know what will happen next.

Dolos Hope is in KUCHING SARAWAK

I'm so grateful i was in time to go visit Dolos Hope before i go back to my campus. SO i bought some books i find useful for my studies and also a knitting book to satisfy my hunger for my hobby. Thanks to my mummy who bought it. Love you lots mummy!!!! i want to share a few shots that i got from my dad's phone. brought back memories about Doulos too ..

(the ship upfront, don't know why but i feel so proud just looking at it)

(He's a real human ok? but he's so great, after so many flashes from countless cameras, he never even blinked once! wow.. but i'm quite scared of him ..)

(this is one of the pictures taken from the gallery, it's a story of a journey, it's taken from the Bible, a very famous story, the parable of the prodigal son)

(this sign really captured my attention, sometimes, i just don't know where i'm headed to, i just follow where my feet take me)

(this is the logo.. i hope it will come here again soon)

(this is my mommy.. hahaha.. love her!!)

The next destination of Dolos Hope is Kota Kinabalu Sabah!!! that's where my campus is.. the unfortunate thing is, when the ship hits Sabah, i'll be already flying back to Kuching so i won't be able to go and visit. so, thank goodness for this heavenly opportunity. So, those staying in KK, do anticipate their coming on 17th November 2011 and support them .. :) bye for now.

a holiday well spent

My holidays is almost over and i'll be going back to campus in a two days time. but i'm happy because i have done a lot and i did not waste my time in vain. I did a lot of things together with my family and i will cherish those moments everytime i feel down and sad. Family is everything so please don't ever despise your family because they are the ones who will be with you when all things leave you. Since my third sister just finished her PMR, i got to spend most of my time with her because she didn't go to school anymore. I also did some revision on my studies as the exams are just around the corner. Besides that, i also went back to my father's village during the weekend and it was a bliss, although the rain was pouring like what. I even went to church there, which i haven't been to for a very long time until people around me asked who i was. hahah.. i am proud to be an IBAN! I never realised it until lately because i have found people who love me for who i am, that is my family and close relatives.

Anyway, while spending my time mostly at home, i did the cooking and took care of my sisters and working mother, hahah.. and also did some baking, which is something i didn't do for a long time also because of business due to my homework and stuffs. Luckily, like my mom said, my skills still haven't faded yet, happy to hear that. So, i want to share a few pictures on how i did my CHICKEN PIE. it's some recipe i got from the newspaper and the filling is inspired by my GRANDPA, because a long time ago when i was still little, he always made chicken pie for me and my eldest sis and we would follow him to the market and but fresh chicken breast. Later we would just sit there and watch him peel the boiled chicken, he is a very detailed man, and still is.. LOVE YOU Grandpa!! :)

Yarn day

On 14th October 2011 it was Yarn Day which was celebrated worldwide. I'm a yarn freak, as i call myself.. I love yarns, as it goes together with knitting. So in order to show my love, i downloaded a pattern and knitted roses and made them into badges. I just started knitting at the end of last year, but it's almost a year now since i've started knitting. I enjoy it because it helps with killing those idle time so i thought to myself, might as well make myself useful.

So far, I've knitted small items like roses and also small bags that can be used for dinner or an outing. My biggest project was to knit a cardigan, but it didn't come out as expected, well i'm just a beginner after all. So i will finish it up this coming long school holidays. Another project will be a scarf, it's quite long but some suggested it to be longer, so i'm still continuing to lengthen it. It has been some time since i've knitted something big because i've been very busy with assignments and with the upcoming finals, i'm now starting to do some serious preparation because i don't want to get over-confident like I did last time and i really regretted my ruthless behavior.

Currently it's a holiday, even if it's only for one week but I really love it because I've got time to spare with my beloved family before i sit for my most important exam. My family is the only ones who understand me for who i am.

Those are the roses I've knitted. Good night for now.

Don't judge or be judged

It's a normal thing to do because it's like a routine and it feels weird if we don't comment about others. Given the consequences, these things never do really stop because we are not aware of what we are talking about, to us maybe it's harmless but it's not. I'm one myself and seriously, old habit dies hard. It's so true. Keeping silent could be such a pain at times. Still, it helps not to talk also because we never know when the cycle will come to us. No one is perfect so gossiping is sure to occur. Don't be shocked when you hear rumors spreading about you too. It's hard or impossible to prevent these things but we could avoid it by not saying too much even though we want to. It's hard but do give it a try, I did, but not all the times also (sad you know.) this is because there are also people out there talking about you and you just don't know about it. So, beware before opening your mouth to the public.

Like a quote i read recently:

~you know my name~

~not my story~

~you heard what i've done~

~not what i've been through~

(i really love all these quotes)

Well, it's so true. Often, people just listen and take in what they want and need to know without considering that person's feelings and what really happened at that time. I've been through that road before. It really hurts you know? people just attack you even when they don't know anything. but as time passes, somehow the truth will come out and eventually everything will be cleared. but the time cannot be mentioned exactly because only God knows. All these are God's will and no matter how much we are hurt, something always happen for a reason even though we don't understand it.

that's all for tonight, not feeling well, under the weather.. good night.

Life's but a maze

The good news about maze is that one way or the other you will surely find a way out. The bad news is, you just never know how long it's going to take. a lifetime? perhaps not that long as long we have the determination to keep on walking and finding a way out. That's life as we can see it.

There are times we think that we have reached the dead end in life and choose to end it permanently. Well, it might sound reasonable at the height of the moment, but after that, regretting it eternally won't help because there's no turning back. Like they say, "There's a silver lining behind each cloud". It might not be your day but you never know what tomorrow bring.

Live your day as if it was your last. You never know when it's going to be your last. This means that we should always appreciate what we have and be thankful everyday despite what is happening. Sadness does not last long and neither do happiness. Hence, when you feel you're on top of the world, don't feel so full of yourself, and same goes to those who are sad, it's not the end of the world. I can say this because I've been there before.

Like a maze, life is full of curves and sharp bends that is so sharp to penetrate through our heart. But time heals, though scars remain. However, remember, those scars are marks to tell us that next time we want to go towards that path, we are being reminded and therefore that same mistake or sadness will not be repeated(there are some though, who just can't seem to get enough of those scars,like me, sometimes) . .

Currently I'm still journeying in this endless maze route and i just can't wait to get out. There are a few "roads" i know i shouldn't walk through the second time through a hard lesson. But then, experience is the best teacher. I pray for protection because the path of the end of the journey is going to be even harder. This is only the beginning of my journey..

I seem to be focusing more on my homework and korean dramas(like crazy!!) and i think i'm liking it because i want to finish everything in time and i'm trying to be more responsible and i don't care what others might think of me. I am me and I'm not ashamed to be me.. On korean dramas, it's like a marathon! Can't stop and from the month of september until now, I've finished watching 2 korean dramas(49 days and Lie to me)!! wow, before this was "The greatest Love" .. now i'm watching the third one, "Romance town". Because being alone is such as bore so while eating my dinner I'll watch it or when i'm feeling lonely. But of course my homework is still being done.. But of course, laziness tend to occur also..

It's really fun.. I just got a quote from the internet and it spoke my mind-

~Don't depend TOO much on anyone in this world~

~Because even your shadow leaves you~

~when you're in darkness~

Well, it's normal nowadays. I don't want to touch on this topic~~

I guess that's all. Have a good night and God bless..