Believe in what you pray for

Often times when we pray for something, let's face it, for example, ME, I don't really expect that my prayer would be answered. I doubt too much, I just pray because I need to, but I don't really expect it to be answered. Why? Because there was a time when I used to trust in answered prayers, and then suddenly everything changed. My prayers went unanswered and I was left there, waiting for a reply that never came.

Then, I realised, with painful truth that, it was with good reason that it wasn't answered. Most of the times, we pray with a desire in our heart. And that desire isn't healthy. It makes our prayer into something totally different, it becomes instead of "God, can I have this?" to "God you MUST give me or else..."  See the difference in those two situation? My prayer often became the latter part, much to my regret. 

I still have a long way to go in seeking God, that is why my life journey will never be a boring one, because every day I discover something new, that changes the way I see God and making me understand, though not all the time, that it's because He loves us that He refuses to give us what we want, because the thing we want, would eventually hurt us. So, if we still want it anyway, then whatever the consequences, we must learn how to face it on our own. Of course, we would also tend to blame God because it looks like it was because of Him we got hurt. Humans... 

Oh well, I was never perfect to begin with. There are so many things that I have learnt along the way and today's entry, about believing in what we pray for really means a lot to me.

The waiting part is always the hardest, but when we passed that phase, it would be a lot easier. Of course, most of the time we don't know when do we actually pass the waiting test. Only God knows and therefore, we must learn to trust in Him, and listen to that small voice, or so I've heard and read His words all the time. 

As for me, since I started to pray and BELIEVE in what I prayed for, now although I am still waiting, I will still praise Him because as each day comes to an end, my answer is a day nearer. I just simply believe that the timing must be perfect in order for everything to fall into place. I am still waiting, FYI, but I just have to trust Him on this matter, because it is a big matter. 

So, do not be afraid, pray, but take away the unhealthy desire thingy, pray with a humble and hopeful heart, and the secret recipe is to BELIEVE that you have actually received it, and thank God for it.