Feeble February

Feeling extremely down

Oh well, for the beginning of February, this isn't a great start to begin with. There had been such chaos of feelings and personal thoughts, including myself in class today.

I hate feeling this way but one thing for sure is that I don't believe a thing that person has to say. People nowadays are often not truthful, even to themselves, either they are confused with themselves or they are just too self-denial. For me, you should be aware of what you are talking, what you promise others. So that you will not go back on your own words, in my way of speaking, eating back your own vomit. 

Oh well, in my case, that person did. But without realising it because i guess he's just too full of himself. 

Anyway, due to this situation my day was splashed with eternal darkness. I don't know what to hope for anymore. i don't want to judge, so i hope no one will judge me. I speak of my own free will, i totally disagree with the way I was being insulted. I remembered that person saying of not practising favouritism. Oh, how i hope i could smash him. But my mind just won't allow that to happen. Weird, all i could think about at that time was this:

"Different people have different abilities"

After that, whatever that f**l said meant nothing to me because all i could think about was things that i'm good at. I admit i don't have good presenting skills, i suck at talking to the public but somehow or rather if if God's will for me then i have nothing to be afraid of because in time to come things that i never expected would happen and who knows what the future holds? All i can say now is that 

It doesn't means that if you can't do something you are a failure

Never let evil people poison your mind with their evil thoughts and opinions. Say this instead, "I am unique in my own way and the LORD has already planned my future carefully for me, so why should I be afraid of words that can only harm me temporarily, compared to GOD who could destroy the body and soul when it's thrown to hell where the fire never goes out?"

We should stay strong no matter what happens. My mission this February is to apply what I've learnt all this while into practice.  

Hence, i guess i failed my first mission today, in letting my emotions get the better of me.