Sensitive people are rare

Sensitive people are really special people.
The feel deeply, they love deeply and they get hurt easily too.
It took me some time to accept I am one of them.
I saw it as a weakness because I always trust easily, only to be used and hurt multiple times.
I am still searching,
For a genuine friendship
A love worth waiting for
I guess I have searched at the wrong places and trusted wrong people.
I always think to myself, when I meet someone else they would be different, but they were all the same.
Their friendship only lasts as long as they needed me.
I give too much, I am too loyal.
In society I can be labelled as a fool.
I refused to believe it, but as time passes, I learnt the hard way that good people nowadays are like finding a needle in a haystack.
I saw this on Facebook and it just struck me, because it was exactly what was on my mind.

Shared from Facebook (A gleam of dreams)

Sensitive people are the most genuine and honest people you will ever meet. There is nothing they won’t tell you about themselves if they trust your kindness. However, the moment you betray them, reject them or devalue them, they will end the friendship. They live with guilt and constant pain over unresolved situations and misunderstandings.

They are tortured souls that are not able to live with hatred or being hated. This type of person needs the most love anyone can give them because their soul has been constantly bruised by others. However, despite the tragedy of what they have to go through in life, they remain the most compassionate people worth knowing and the ones that often become activists for the broken-hearted, forgotten and the misunderstood. They are angels with broken wings that only fly when loved.. 🌿❤️



I know life is hard. I know sometimes you feel like giving up: on people and on yourself. I know you have good days and bad days but more bad than good or so it seems. I know everyday you question yourself “what is this all for?” ,”am I making the right choices?” or “am I supposed to be here, now?”. I know you have more questions than answers and most of the time you don’t even know how to explain them.

I know life is hard, but you have to keep going. You have to rise above the waters of your soul, and bloom, no matter how hot the fire is. No matter how many arrows you carry on your back, believe me, you’re a warrior. You’re a soldier filled with both pain and love. And life, well, life is just another beast you were meant to tame and there is no one better for the job, other than you.. 🌿

So now I have learnt, I MUST learn to love myself. Because no one will do it for me. In this world where love is scarse and trust is like an alien word, I must learn to pick myself up and be more independent than ever. But in my heart, I never give up and secretly pray to find the one person I believe God will let me meet when the time is right. The person that will love me, and have my trust and he/she can trust me too. Be it a friend or my other half, I believe there are also people like me who are waiting for something genuine in this broken world.

When it gets too tiring

When life gets  too tiring, learn to slow down and relax. Do something that could help you relax.
For me, it is through reading verses from the bible.
And hobbies such as reading and crafting.
Now I have a new place, the library.
Sometimes, we need time to recuperate.

I like to think of nothing at times.
To just let everything go for a while, and move into my safe haven.

Then, I would get up again and start my journey.
Life is filled with so many unpredictable things, we cannot predict everything. So that is why we get tired.
Tired of trying to make everyone happy, but at the end of the day, does anyone care about your feelings?
If no, then you are trying too hard.
Let go and let God handle it.
We are humans, we are not meant to please people.
We are created to please and praise God.

Everything in this life leads to one realisation, the realisation that God is the only One that can fulfill us.
He is the One to go to when we feel tired and hopeless.

I rememberer a saying,
"Life doesn't give us a purpose, we give life a purpose".
It is true. When I started to think like that, everything became clear.
Nothing can harm us if we did not allow it in the first place.
Of course, we cannot avoid deaths and sickness, but the mind plays an important role in how we decide to react to the current situation.
Do we let Life ruin us? Or we give life a new purpose, which is to be happy and grateful for the many blessings that God had given throughout our life?
I have learnt it the hard way.
It took me a long while before I started counting my blessings. All I could think of were the bad things that happened to me. I ignored the blessings and blame Him for giving me a lousy life.
But now, I realised the "bad things" were a blessing in disguise.
Instead of complaining, now I decided to do my best and let the talent that God gave me be put into good use.
Instead of asking "why this happened to me?", now I throw Life a purpose, "I will do my best in my workplace and learn instead of complaining".
My journey is still long so I always need to remind myself that when life gets tiring, I should look back at my past to see how far I have gone and it would be too bad to give up now.

The blue umbrella

I was walking at Kaison in Kuching the other day, when I saw this huge poster.
Immediately I remembered the story.
It was a short clip but it was so sweet.
The mixed emotions of happiness, sadness and frustration were all included.
The title was "the blue umbrella".
About a blue umbrella in search for his " love".
I am suddenly reminded about timing, again.
It's been a long wait.
But I guess seeing this picture gave me hope.
That one day, like the blue umbrella, we will meet.
And even though we would face many hardships ans tribulations, we would always somehow find our way back to each other.

Sandwich time!!!

Just looking through old posts and found these wonderful pictures.
Back in early Jan 2018.
(Currently teaching English Year 5 and there was a topic about making sandwich)
So I thought, why not?
I bought the ingredients and asked them to make it themselves.
They certainly loved it, but the taste of the egg mix was not quite there yet. 😅

(Peeling the egg shells)

Waiting for their turn to make their very own egg sandwich)

(My own egg sandwich) 😁

Teaching is fun when we do things outside of the normal lessons.

They still remember it to this very day and asked for more. But I told them we just have to wait for a perfect opportunity because this is now the Sports and carnival seasons. 

More activities like this soon. 😁😁

Baking time

I always love holidays!!
It is always the time to relax, and do things that I enjoy most!
This holiday, I decided to make chicken pie and egg tarts.

(Chicken pie, mini size)

(Egg tarts) 

I just love baking... 😁😁
Simply too many hobbies to keep up with.
Well, it was a well spent holiday at home.

Throwback 2017: KL trip

It was last year that I went on a trip to KL and I really saved a lot of money thanks to the public transports.
I did some research before going there and I am really grateful that I could go to all those places and of course, come back in one piece.

All these are a blessing from God. I dont know when I am going to have the chance to go there again so I am grateful for this trip. Next trip would be a better one!! 

Solo trip can be difficult, especially when taking pictures, but with the help of good people and selfie stick, I think I can survive) 😊 

Crochet rabbit for easter

I have been too busy studying and finally now that I have finished my studies, I can now get back to my hobby of doing crafts.
This Easter season I came up with a rough idea to make an Easter bunny.

(It took me about a week plus to finish it, along with the basket and easter eggs, the dress was made by my mom, sewed, not crochet) 

It is still not too late to wish everyone a Happy Easter!!

Our lord is risen! Halleluiah!!