Campus life ... AGAIN

Yup, finally back to campus after 3 weeks of paradise at home.
Now it's already tuesday and I've already got homework, urgh... Well, there's nothing much to share about, but one thing I love is coming back to my own room..

The hostel is getting so old and I'm afraid when night comes, because one never knows..

Now, I don't care about anything or anyone anymore. It doesn't matter anyway.
I'm back to the silent person, which actually I'm not. But I like it because I have more time to think on my own and I love it..

Today we changed our seating position and I'm going to sit beside my friends, I mean those that I can relate with and so I hope this semester will be fun one.. :)

I keep getting messages which I believe to be from above, call me a lunatic but like I said, I don't care, so today I will be sharing those pictures.. Enjoy and maybe you can relate to some..

Who's laughing now

I really love Jessie J because her songs are really true and meaningful, especially this song which struck me.
"Who's laughing now".
I got the lyrics and just wanted to share it:

Mummy they called me names, they wouldn't let me play
I run home sit and cry almost every day
"Hey Jessica you look like an alien
With green skin you don't fit in this playpen"

Oh, they pulled my hair they took away my chair
I keep it in and pretend that I didn't care
"Hey Jessica you're so funny
You've got teeth just like Bugs Bunny"

Oh, so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising, I'm still rising, yeah
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

'Cause I'm in LA, you think I've made my fame
FB makes us friends when you only really know my name
"Oh Jessie we knew you could make it
I've got a track and I'd love for you to take it"

So now because I'm signed, you think my pocket's lined
Four years down and I'm still waiting in the line
"Oh Jessie I saw you on YouTube
I tagged old photos from when we was at school!"

Oh, so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising I'm still rising, yeah
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

Jessie, she broke out of the box
Swallowed your pride you got that ego cough
Let the haters hate, you're like way too late
Click, click, see I got a message from you

"Hola, I'm proud of you!"
"Oh my god, babe
Your voice is like wow"
My reply? Who's laughing now?

Oh so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising, I'm still rising
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star
But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone
But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

Hey hey, who's laughing? Hey hey, who's laughing?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star
But who's laughing now? But who's laughing now?

The lyrics really made me feel better, I guess pain is a part of life so that we can grow up and be more mature. I will accept the fact that I am meant to face everything alone and that no one can ever replace me. I know everything happens for a reason but I pray for strength to let me go through all this pain in the future. Someday in the future I will look back and say to those who hurt me along the way, "Who's laughing now? Because I'm still alive and still carrying on with my life!!"

Bye and God bless~~ 

Movie marathon

Yesterday, I went to this new mall called City One Mega Mall. It was still new and I had been waiting for so long to go there because it was new!! Haha, anyway, my sisters and I had to waited till we got back from kampong.
So, the day after we got back, we went out. The place was still quite empty and the main attraction was of course the GSC cinema. It was big and pretty and very cold. I regretted not bringing my sweater and my sister even had to buy one because she really couldn't stand it anymore. We really had fun. First we went to Sugar Bun, which was the only place that sold food, i mean, like rice. It was approaching noon and we haven't had our stomach filled yet.

Before that we had already bought our tickets, 3 movies in a row!!! We didn't realise it was night already when we came out from our last movie. It was also raining.. :-/
1. Epic 3D
2. Fast and Furious 6
3. Star trek into the darkness

I've watched Star trek already but then i really wanted to watch it again, it was just awesome and I'm seriously and weirdly addicted to Spock, or rather the person acting as him. :)
Below are the pictures of the movies...

(Really loved all the 3 movies ...)
Below are some pictures for memories~~~

(Me and my sisters... :D ) 

(I'm also in love with Khan a.k.a Benedict Cumberbatch.. hehe) 

Shocking experience

I just wanted to share what I had experience when I was in my Kampong during Gawai. The experience was weird and I don't care if no one believes this.
Well here it goes:

"Today is the third day I am in kampong and it’s the first day of Gawai, so Selamat Hari Gawai to those who are celebrating. I had this shocking experience that I think or maybe I will never forget about it.

It was Gawai morning and so I got up reasonably early, bathed and changed into my so-called new clothing. Applied light makeup and out I went, to serve the guests that came to my home.

After awhile, my dad and his friends came to the house and after serving them, my mom and sisters and I went to the kitchen to have a break from the hectic morning. Suddenly this uncle came and he was drunk. He borrowed the toilet. When he walked out he suddenly just sat in front of us all and gave us a lecture. I don’t know how to explain this but here goes the story.

He told me not to get married too early, or early. I should first tour the whole world and see the world before I settle down. Initially that was my idea because I gave up on the idea of having a boyfriend at the moment of time or for the time being. He also mentioned about his daughter going to Bali, England and so many other places and I should be like her, don’t rush when it comes to marriage, and because when I want to travel later part, my husband might not want to come with me or even allow me to go.

My mom started to become dramatic and said all kind of things. I agreed with her but she made me feel goose bumps all over.

After that, there was my cousin (ONE) she asked if I have any boyfriend or not and of course I said ‘no’. She encouraged me to go and find one, saying that the internet is a good option also. Well, this is different from the first advice.

The last one came from my cousin also, cousin (TWO) she is married and already has two lovely children, a boy and a girl. Before she left, she told me not to settle down too early. She said that once you have children, like her, it wouldn’t be easy to move around, and she pointed to her kids, because they were eager to get out of our house and look for their daddy.

In conclusion, I guess perhaps God answered my prayer, the prayer that I had sent to him a long time ago. The answer is simple, He wants me to wait. After all that I’ve went through, I guess the answer is what I’ve been waiting for. I’m tired of chasing and wanting things that aren’t mine. I’m tired and I think God knows I’m not ready. Coming to think of it, I myself don’t think I’m ready.

Well, today had been extraordinary. 

Well, the above was what I can recall back. And also, when I returned home and went online I saw this picture and I just know that He is telling me something. I believe we must all have our doubting moments, but then again I just decided to trust in HIM... 

What the picture said,

Don't take "finding" a man or a relationship into your own hands. Pairing you with His best for your life is EASY. But because God understands TIMING, it's dangerous to step out on your OWN time and date a bunch of random people that... He never told you to go out with. You then experience ALL of this hurt, soul ties, drama, get a broken heart, and whatever else...all while Christ is sitting there and saying "I had nothing to do with these men. I will restore you and make you whole... but you have GOT to stop trying to control your life". God has NOT forgotten about you, have you forgotten to trust Him? (Source: SpiritualInspiration.tumblr) 

(Praise God?? My answer is "AMEN"!!!!!! ) Good night and God bless~~

Selamat Hari Gawai

Here I want to take this opportunity to wish all a very happy Gawai... :)

I went back to my kampong in Serian, my kampong's name is Kampung Seruit for 5 days and it was fun. For the first time I actually enjoy serving people when they come visiting to my house. 

I just want to share some pictures that I've taken while I was there. (The pictures are not sorted according to the dates)

 (This was taken a day before Gawai, my dad was BBQing, smoke can be seen, and the weather was getting darker, which rained eventually, luckily, everything was done before the rain came)

 (This were the food that was BBQed. We had hot dogs, chicken wings and most importantly, PORK!!!)

 (This was Gawai Eve, we always light candles at night. Actually i don't know what's the reason behind it, have to ask my dad to make sure)

 (This was taken on the second day of Gawai, finally my family and I went visiting. My mom was eating "pulut" and duck, yummy!!)

(This was also taken on the second day, we visited my aunty's house, the highlight of this picture is the 'arak', which is the main attraction of visiting. Of course, children are not allowed to drink, but as an adult you must at least have a beer or a small glass of tuak or arak.)

(This was taken on the first day of Gawai. These boys were among the first visitors that came to my house. They were a naughty and lively bunch but as you could see, they were enjoying themselves, and i was their server, heheh...) 

(This was also on the second day, my dad in the striped shirt and my mom, the blue blouse, wearing specs. she'a a chinese. I guess I just have the best of both worlds, despite what people say) 

I can say that this Gawai was much fun, particularly because before going back to the kampong, which actually I didn't enjoy much because there was no internet line and cellphone line. But then, I thought twice and think that if I were to think positively, maybe things weren't turn out too bad. I guess I could say that things were superb :) 

Memories during Semester 5

Since it's the holidays and because I didn't have the time to update my blog for a long time, here goes nothing! I will post pictures that have been going on throughout my semester 5 life.

(See all those pictures? There was like rainbows, practically everwhere!! Amazing but sad to say it wasn't that clear, lousy phone camera. But it was so huge and so breathtakingly beautiful! There were about 3 or 4 rainbows in different places. These are taken back in KK, my campus)

Anugerah pelajar cemerlang

It was and will always be by God's grace that I received my very first anugerah pelajar cemerlang. I really thank God for giving me such a great blessing, despite all the suffering I went through. The event was successful, except for the waiting part. It was a great memory to remember this year. . :-)

(Great experience and who knows what God has in mind for us right? Surrendering myself wholly to Him)

Besides that, throughout this semester, I came to learn, the hard way, that we should put all our worries and troubles to God. Let him do the talking, the handling. It's very simple, all we have to do is wait. But I didn't know that, I just had to do something, or else I feel life is wasted away. But then, God's way will always be different from us, and the answer I always get is asking for my obedience. I still find it hard to do so because we can't see and we believe in something we've never seen. I guess that's why in the Bible it said that we live by faith not by sight. In fact, there's so many things in life that I can't explain and don't understand. Yup, till this very day I don't know why bad things happen to me and why life is never fair to me. I've done all that's requested and yet nothing comes by easily. I learnt my lesson mostly through the hard ways. 

But at the end of the day, I still survived and I am confident that it's through God's grace that I am where I am today. I know I don't sound convincing enough because I'm not, but what I DO know that is whenever I have a problem and I search the Bible for an answer, somewhere and somehow the answer will always come out. I don't believe in coincidence because everything happens for a reason. Therefore, I guess it's faith building for me. 

"I just have to close my eyes and walk towards where God is leading me, and most of the time, I feel like I'm walking on thin ice. I don't know what to expect and I don't know what is waiting for me up ahead. The only thing I know for sure is that when I finally get to meet Him, every suffering and pain I've been through will be nothing, because the Bible says so".

There's this one verse I want to share which I got when I was in deep water:

1 Peter 1:6

 “So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while"

Take care and God bless :)

Arm warmers

At first I was thinking, what the heck am I knitting anyway? I was so afraid that it would end up becoming nothing because I myself can't even identify it. But thanks to my mom, I realised I used the wrong term, I thought what I was knitting would be "hand warmers" but actually it's called "Arm warmers". I guess I will always be a beginner in knitting but it's ok because I don't have enough time to learn and also I've been learning from the internet. Hence, not much, only the basics. :-)
 It's been like almost 2 years plus since I learnt knitting on my own, the reason, is because of this korean drama. Funny but true, the title, if not mistaken is "Mary stayed outside the whole night". I was so captivated but the way she knitted scarfs and gloves so fast and it was so beautiful.
Well, here are some pictures of the "Arm warmers" that I'm knitting, one side is already done and the pattern, I created it myself, had a hard time estimating the correct size.