Then, I started thinking. Enough is enough. How long am I going to see myself being bullied by seniors? It's not even my job to begin with! And no matter how I contributed, like I always do, the credits would always go to THEM. It's not like I'm badmouthing anyone here, but that is a fact. The fact that in general, the newbies are always bullied by the seniors to do donkey work. This is so not healthy. But can anything be done about this situation?
For me, yes. I have finally, for one, decided to not say the magic word. I don't care anymore, it's not my job so when I am being questioned, that would be my respond. easy. simple. not lying.
It's really difficult to get out of this kind of situation, especially when we are in the workplace. Unless you know your way to sweettalk yourself out of the situation then you're a genius. I guess I am the dumb one here, always too afraid people might judge me for being lazy and not doing my job.
But when I think of it now, it doesn't matter anymore, whether I do the job or not, they will always be there to judge me. The reason is simple, they never like me and they hate to see me free. I have just worked my a*s off and just when i want to relax, they would say i am so free compared to them.
Life is never fair.
Someone told me some people are just so lucky to have good lives. But i told that person it is wrong. Those people have good lives because they know which side of the bread is buttered.
As for me, on the other hand, I don't go and sweettalk people, I do my job as best as I can and that's it. ( I can't and don't want to change who I am) that's why I'm facing all this sh*t right now. But I will do my best to prevent that from happening right now. If only ... All I can do is pray for something to happen now. I really hate what is happening right now.
So, I just want to push everything away and pretend nothing ever happened. What's the point of doing EVERYTHING and not getting ANYTHING out of it? It's like I'm a ghost writer. Really gets me questioning WHY is this happening to me all over again. It's because of my say YES attitude. Hate myself for that.
Well, so...
Note to self: Please be nice to yourself, treat yourself to something nice and let's forget about work for awhile.
