It seems like nothing you do ever seems right, everything around you seems bleak and hopeless.
No one cares what happens to you, unless you're in their way.
Time doesn't wait for anyone, it goes on and on and if you can't catch up, you'll be left behind.
In my heart, I keep waiting for that something, which I myself do not what is it actually that I am waiting for.
A ray of sunshine, perhaps, to warm this cold dark heart of mine, but nothing good ever seems to come in my way..
All I get are obstacles, storms, things that demotivate and crushes my spirit. I don't want to give up but I can't see things in the positive way anymore.
Well, the only thing i can do now is relax and wait before I asssume my journey.
I'm tired in all ways, name it, physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and just about every other things.
So many things have been going on inside my mind lately and I'm beginning to question myself whether or not I'm losing it. I hope not of course. I guess "stress" is normal nowadays.
I just don't know where to go now..
No one will ever know how you feel because they are not you. The word "empathetic" is just a word.
We all know most of the times WORDS can't even express how we are feeling.
At times like this, I try to stop myself, go to a quiet place (if i can), and just think and reflect, where did I go wrong. Why is everyone doing what they're doing? And also, search for Him.. I have to admit, it's hard, because most of the time, He's quiet.
I was never a normal person to begin with. Well, of course it depends on how you define 'normal'. I don't like things that normal people like, I used to have lots of friends, but after all that had happened, I feel safer to be alone. And, I don't talk much, unless it's something I like. And I seldom smile, which brings people to think of me as a snob and other things, as if I care.
But well, LIFE's like that. It's like a roller coaster, i guess now I'm at the bottom. Can't say I blame anyone, I'm just too sensitive..
Hoping for a better tomorrow..God bless~~
