Moral Forum

Today we had forum on the moral issues..
It was quite sad because there was not enough time for our group to present .. Here are some of my friends presenting their points and also part of the forum ..

Beautiton 2013

This is the first time I ever heard of this word "Beautiton", anyways, we were asked to make the campus area more beautiful by painting it. It was tiring but at the end of the day i can say that the result is satisfying and i feel happy and proud.

Blessed Sunday

Happy Sunday everyone!!!
Since I've already went to church yesterday, so today I'm spending it in my room.. Had a nice sleep and woke up fresh. Well, actually not so fresh because outside now is HAZE ...

I can feel my throat getting sore and in this weather, do drink lots and lots of water...

My agenda for today is knitting socks for my beloved grandpa and also crocheting a blanket for myself
Since I love music so much, I'm currently listening to Lady Antebellum's "Need you now", "Just a kiss", "Downtown" and also their other songs that I managed to download for the internet..

(Well, this is how my study table looks like, messy but i dont know how to clean it anymore)

What's your problem?

I don't believe it when someone says they have no problems at all.
We all have problems. My problems cannot be counted but I can tell you the major problems in my mind right now:
1. Face problem
2. Food problem
3. Weight problem

I guess all those things are worldly things huh? Anyways, whatever the problems are, be glad that there is someone that can solve our problem, or if not, be right with us so that we are strong enough to walk through all those problems..

I love to eat but my belly is getting so big and I'm afraid. Now, I'm trying to eat less, I still eat of course, if i say i'm dieting then it's a big lie. I tried it before but it never worked out. I just eat less, still hard to do so anyway because once my eyes see food, my hand can't stop reaching for it.. :-)

Prayer is also very important in the midst of all our problems. Some might say where does God fit in when it comes to weight problem? Well, I read about it somewhere and it proves what I say is true. I don't quite remember it but then prayer is important. We should pray to the Lord for self-control. Fasting is also good, we must sacrifice what we love most for His sake.

I have lots of pimples and blackheads and everything you can think of. Recently I've been using this product but then it wasn't quite effective at all, my mom asked me to pray so that God will understand because we didn't have that much money just to spend on my face.

Overall, everything is related to Him, we just have to put our faith in Him. I'm still me, and I still have my doubts but I just to pray that one day my eyes will be truly open...

My kind of guy

It's the weekend!! Finally going to have some rest after a hectic week...

I like to admire artists, especially male ones.. and keep thinking of my ideal type. But I guess no one is perfect, still I would like to take a look at some guys that I actually like and would love to have, :)


1. Micky Yoo chun
2. Him Chan
3. Charles Kelley
4. Zachary Quinto

(Micky Yoo chun on the most right hand side)

(Him Chan from BAP)

(Charles Kelley from Lady Antebellum) 

(Zachary Quinto)

I don't know why but the way they look:
1. Their eyes
2. Their smile
3. Their hair style
4. Their height

Those really capture my attention.. :)

Good night and God bless~~

Carrie Underwood - See you again

This new song by Carrie Underwood really touched my heart and soul.
I've always enjoyed her songs because it shows about God's love and "See you again" is a brand new song from her.
Below are her lyrics and do listen ..
"See You Again"

Said goodbye, turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away
But I won’t cry
Cause I know I’ll never be lonely
For you are the stars to me,
You are the light I follow

[Chorus:]
I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night
Calling me back in time
Back to you
In a place far away
Where the water meets the sky
The thought of it makes me smile
You are my tomorrow

[Chorus:]
I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again

[Bridge:]
Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know
I’ll see you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, yeah yeah

[Outro:]
I’ll See you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again
Till I see you again,
Till I see you again,
Said goodbye turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone.

This song is a mixture of sadness and happiness in the afterlife.. 

A short prayer: Oh Lord, please continue to guide me in this life until my life on earth ends.. :)

 Bye and God bless~~ 

My new heartthrob

I guess I'm really getting old already. I was shocked to see so many new artists debuting and most of them are almost the same age as my younger sisters..

The latest person I like or admire is Austin Mahone.. :)
He's cute and I must say his songs are great.. I would suggest that you give it a try and listen to his songs:
So far I've only hear 3 of his songs and I love all of it..

1. What about love
2. Say you're just a friend
3. Say something

Here are some photos of him..

Tamako Market review

I'm so into this Anime, it was introduced by my sister and I'm really grateful for that. The bird is so cute and it really makes your day, especially after you have had a bad day...

I really recommend everyone to watch this anime, you will laugh your heart out and it's healthy you know, to let out your stress~~

Campus life ... AGAIN

Yup, finally back to campus after 3 weeks of paradise at home.
Now it's already tuesday and I've already got homework, urgh... Well, there's nothing much to share about, but one thing I love is coming back to my own room..

The hostel is getting so old and I'm afraid when night comes, because one never knows..

Now, I don't care about anything or anyone anymore. It doesn't matter anyway.
I'm back to the silent person, which actually I'm not. But I like it because I have more time to think on my own and I love it..

Today we changed our seating position and I'm going to sit beside my friends, I mean those that I can relate with and so I hope this semester will be fun one.. :)

I keep getting messages which I believe to be from above, call me a lunatic but like I said, I don't care, so today I will be sharing those pictures.. Enjoy and maybe you can relate to some..

Who's laughing now

I really love Jessie J because her songs are really true and meaningful, especially this song which struck me.
"Who's laughing now".
I got the lyrics and just wanted to share it:

Mummy they called me names, they wouldn't let me play
I run home sit and cry almost every day
"Hey Jessica you look like an alien
With green skin you don't fit in this playpen"

Oh, they pulled my hair they took away my chair
I keep it in and pretend that I didn't care
"Hey Jessica you're so funny
You've got teeth just like Bugs Bunny"

Oh, so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising, I'm still rising, yeah
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

'Cause I'm in LA, you think I've made my fame
FB makes us friends when you only really know my name
"Oh Jessie we knew you could make it
I've got a track and I'd love for you to take it"

So now because I'm signed, you think my pocket's lined
Four years down and I'm still waiting in the line
"Oh Jessie I saw you on YouTube
I tagged old photos from when we was at school!"

Oh, so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising I'm still rising, yeah
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

Jessie, she broke out of the box
Swallowed your pride you got that ego cough
Let the haters hate, you're like way too late
Click, click, see I got a message from you

"Hola, I'm proud of you!"
"Oh my god, babe
Your voice is like wow"
My reply? Who's laughing now?

Oh so you think you know me now?
Have you forgotten how
You would make me feel
When you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game
And I'm still rising, I'm still rising
So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone

But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star
But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

So make your jokes, go for broke
Blow your smoke, you're not alone
But who's laughing now?
But who's laughing now?

Hey hey, who's laughing? Hey hey, who's laughing?
So raise the bar, hit me hard
Play your cards, be a star
But who's laughing now? But who's laughing now?

The lyrics really made me feel better, I guess pain is a part of life so that we can grow up and be more mature. I will accept the fact that I am meant to face everything alone and that no one can ever replace me. I know everything happens for a reason but I pray for strength to let me go through all this pain in the future. Someday in the future I will look back and say to those who hurt me along the way, "Who's laughing now? Because I'm still alive and still carrying on with my life!!"

Bye and God bless~~ 

Movie marathon

Yesterday, I went to this new mall called City One Mega Mall. It was still new and I had been waiting for so long to go there because it was new!! Haha, anyway, my sisters and I had to waited till we got back from kampong.
So, the day after we got back, we went out. The place was still quite empty and the main attraction was of course the GSC cinema. It was big and pretty and very cold. I regretted not bringing my sweater and my sister even had to buy one because she really couldn't stand it anymore. We really had fun. First we went to Sugar Bun, which was the only place that sold food, i mean, like rice. It was approaching noon and we haven't had our stomach filled yet.

Before that we had already bought our tickets, 3 movies in a row!!! We didn't realise it was night already when we came out from our last movie. It was also raining.. :-/
1. Epic 3D
2. Fast and Furious 6
3. Star trek into the darkness

I've watched Star trek already but then i really wanted to watch it again, it was just awesome and I'm seriously and weirdly addicted to Spock, or rather the person acting as him. :)
Below are the pictures of the movies...

(Really loved all the 3 movies ...)
Below are some pictures for memories~~~

(Me and my sisters... :D ) 

(I'm also in love with Khan a.k.a Benedict Cumberbatch.. hehe) 

Shocking experience

I just wanted to share what I had experience when I was in my Kampong during Gawai. The experience was weird and I don't care if no one believes this.
Well here it goes:

"Today is the third day I am in kampong and it’s the first day of Gawai, so Selamat Hari Gawai to those who are celebrating. I had this shocking experience that I think or maybe I will never forget about it.

It was Gawai morning and so I got up reasonably early, bathed and changed into my so-called new clothing. Applied light makeup and out I went, to serve the guests that came to my home.

After awhile, my dad and his friends came to the house and after serving them, my mom and sisters and I went to the kitchen to have a break from the hectic morning. Suddenly this uncle came and he was drunk. He borrowed the toilet. When he walked out he suddenly just sat in front of us all and gave us a lecture. I don’t know how to explain this but here goes the story.

He told me not to get married too early, or early. I should first tour the whole world and see the world before I settle down. Initially that was my idea because I gave up on the idea of having a boyfriend at the moment of time or for the time being. He also mentioned about his daughter going to Bali, England and so many other places and I should be like her, don’t rush when it comes to marriage, and because when I want to travel later part, my husband might not want to come with me or even allow me to go.

My mom started to become dramatic and said all kind of things. I agreed with her but she made me feel goose bumps all over.

After that, there was my cousin (ONE) she asked if I have any boyfriend or not and of course I said ‘no’. She encouraged me to go and find one, saying that the internet is a good option also. Well, this is different from the first advice.

The last one came from my cousin also, cousin (TWO) she is married and already has two lovely children, a boy and a girl. Before she left, she told me not to settle down too early. She said that once you have children, like her, it wouldn’t be easy to move around, and she pointed to her kids, because they were eager to get out of our house and look for their daddy.

In conclusion, I guess perhaps God answered my prayer, the prayer that I had sent to him a long time ago. The answer is simple, He wants me to wait. After all that I’ve went through, I guess the answer is what I’ve been waiting for. I’m tired of chasing and wanting things that aren’t mine. I’m tired and I think God knows I’m not ready. Coming to think of it, I myself don’t think I’m ready.

Well, today had been extraordinary. 

Well, the above was what I can recall back. And also, when I returned home and went online I saw this picture and I just know that He is telling me something. I believe we must all have our doubting moments, but then again I just decided to trust in HIM... 

What the picture said,

Don't take "finding" a man or a relationship into your own hands. Pairing you with His best for your life is EASY. But because God understands TIMING, it's dangerous to step out on your OWN time and date a bunch of random people that... He never told you to go out with. You then experience ALL of this hurt, soul ties, drama, get a broken heart, and whatever else...all while Christ is sitting there and saying "I had nothing to do with these men. I will restore you and make you whole... but you have GOT to stop trying to control your life". God has NOT forgotten about you, have you forgotten to trust Him? (Source: SpiritualInspiration.tumblr) 

(Praise God?? My answer is "AMEN"!!!!!! ) Good night and God bless~~

Selamat Hari Gawai

Here I want to take this opportunity to wish all a very happy Gawai... :)

I went back to my kampong in Serian, my kampong's name is Kampung Seruit for 5 days and it was fun. For the first time I actually enjoy serving people when they come visiting to my house. 

I just want to share some pictures that I've taken while I was there. (The pictures are not sorted according to the dates)

 (This was taken a day before Gawai, my dad was BBQing, smoke can be seen, and the weather was getting darker, which rained eventually, luckily, everything was done before the rain came)

 (This were the food that was BBQed. We had hot dogs, chicken wings and most importantly, PORK!!!)

 (This was Gawai Eve, we always light candles at night. Actually i don't know what's the reason behind it, have to ask my dad to make sure)

 (This was taken on the second day of Gawai, finally my family and I went visiting. My mom was eating "pulut" and duck, yummy!!)

(This was also taken on the second day, we visited my aunty's house, the highlight of this picture is the 'arak', which is the main attraction of visiting. Of course, children are not allowed to drink, but as an adult you must at least have a beer or a small glass of tuak or arak.)

(This was taken on the first day of Gawai. These boys were among the first visitors that came to my house. They were a naughty and lively bunch but as you could see, they were enjoying themselves, and i was their server, heheh...) 

(This was also on the second day, my dad in the striped shirt and my mom, the blue blouse, wearing specs. she'a a chinese. I guess I just have the best of both worlds, despite what people say) 

I can say that this Gawai was much fun, particularly because before going back to the kampong, which actually I didn't enjoy much because there was no internet line and cellphone line. But then, I thought twice and think that if I were to think positively, maybe things weren't turn out too bad. I guess I could say that things were superb :)