It's been so long since I've last wrote. Hmm.. And the blogging has changed! @.@ .. Can't express my shock, at fist i thought i was in another world or what. . haha..
My exams is next week and I'm studying like what, until i fell sick. i guess i pushed myself too much, i must think of the Lord too and ask for his protection and His guidance so i will not pressure myself too much. Anyway, i'm grateful because my fever has gone down, now i'm only left with an itchy throat and cough.
I think that a lot of people are getting more and more selfish each day, they only live to satisfy their own needs and they don't care if they hurt others. I'm really disappointed in them and i feel like crying but from today onwards i will keep everything to myself and i won't trust anyone with my problems and secrets because once in their hands its no longer a secret. I thought you promised not to tell other people, how could you? I'm not angry but sad with you. Nevermind, i don't mind what had happen (a little, i guess), and i will not trust you anymore. Because you asked for it.
I just can't wait to go back to my family, this place I'm staying here now is like an emotional CAMP. I seriously think i can go cuckoo anytime, if its not for the Lord, i think i have long entered the asylum.. So i'm thankful for everything that happened and from there i will learn from my mistakes and will not fall into the pit for the second time. I'm a straight forward person and that's why a lot of people dislike me, but i'm still alive despite your curses and bad words.
I really miss my friends who could understand me for who i really am and not condemn me without any solid proof. But they are so far away from me now. Like they said, "we are only friends. F.R.I.E.N.D.S " mere friends, weird right? we've known each other for almost 3 years already. Ok, the statement was really hurtful but i take it as it is, i will also treat you the same way, but the thing is i can't, to me everyone is important but its so saddening that the other party doesn't think that way, they think that i'm pestering with their lives. I'M SORRY. Because i didn't know that all this while i have been a pain in the neck for you all.
But i won't give up, although all my close friends are away from me, i will still continue to search for friends who will understand me. :) Need to revise now. Bye and God bless~~
