When friends become strangers

It is weird. We were never that close although we hang out in the same circle.
After graduating we went our own ways and eventually never contacted anymore.
It hurts all the same because I don't know why she dislikes me. She is famous and well known. Unlike me, the kermit.
She likes it when people praise her, but it must never happen to me. But it did, I had better scores than her, obviously, even though I am just a poor girl's daughter. I am trying not to bad mouth her but it hurts.
Well, time flies and I believe we parted ways because there is nothing to hold on to anymore.
I never see her since working and the one time we DID meet it was damn awkward!!!
Rather NOT have these so-called gatherings anymore.
When friends become strangers, better leave it that way. If they were sincere, they wouldn't have left in the first place. Right?

Fun time is over, welcome back to the working realm

Holidays jusy flew by.
Work work work, eh?

(Recess time: a cup of hot coffee and homemade bread)

(Work never rest. Back to routine job.. not just teaching but other work as well, such as ... stock recording) 

Have a good week ahead.. amen. 

Mid-term holidays: Part 2

One month passes by swiftly. This is the final week before I go back to school, again.
Well, I need to shake off this feeling and be happy that I still got a job.
This holiday has taught me a lot.
I improved on my baking skills and I learnt to be grateful for the things I have and appreciate people I love and care about. Life is really too short to hate. I still dislike some people but I have made it a point to love my loved ones harder.
I don't want to regret anything when they are gone later. There is just so much to do but so little time. Time that I used to hate people should really stop. Easier said than done. But I will do my best.
Here are some updates on what I did: 😄

(Making pizza 😄)

(My first father's day cake, my first success. Not as soft as the cake sold in stores and the cream still needs improvement, but overall I was happy and it was yummy too)

(The chocolate cake before decorating it)

(Known as Biskut sarang semut, so difficult to make due to its delicate process, the dough is easy to make but the process is gruesome and i had cuts on my fingers, wrong technique maybe but the result was worth it)

(Went out for yummy dessert)

(Done making the dough and putting it in the paper cup)

It was a great holiday for me. I have improved so much since the last time I baked. 😄😄

Mid-term holidays: Part One

This is the longest holiday and I really ran out of ideas of what to do ...
Here are some pictures of what I did for the past two weeks...

(A dessert known as "dadih", like pudding but it's not, nice when put in the fridge) 

(A shopping mall just opened and the food there was heavenly!! Managed to grab some japanese food) 

(Takoyaki 😋)

(Started to knit again, I'm really not sure what to make, cushion cover or a sweater?) 

(Muffins, which really didnt look like the display picture!!) 

(Bread, after failures upon failures, I FINALLY MADE IT!!)

(SO SOFT and the texture is just right. A huge achivement for me) 🙄 

Part Two coming soon... 😃

Question answered: What if I met the right person at the wrong time?

I just recently came across a picture shared in the social media about this question.
It got me pondering for sometime. And I guess the answer is actually quite straightforward.
It means that the person is not ready.
There is no right or wrong time.
It just happens, without us realising.
I can't help but think maybe I have met him before but the timing is just not right yet.
How can we be sure?
What if we disregard the timing, assuming he is the one but actually isnt?
That is why I really believe in God's timing.
If it is meant to be, the timing will always be right.
Or maybe he really is the one, but the timing just isn't right, and forcing our way into a relationship like that is not going to help us.
(I am starting to jumble up my words) xD

Well, I guess the main point is, trust God.
If He want it to happen, it will....
Till then, pray to grow closer to God and wait....

(Pray first, that is what the Lord wants us to do)

(Naturally it will happen if it is God's will)

His love is real

Went to church today and the reading was about Gos's love.
Just what I needed to hear.
How Jesus asked us to love each other as He has loved us.
We did not choose Him, He chose us. This is something I need to remember now more than ever.
The song that caught my attention the most was "Think about his love" and below is the lyric: just wanted to share how captivating and heartwarming the song is.

Think About His Love

This song is by Don Moen and appears on the Compilation WoW Worship Green (2001).

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace
That's brought us through
For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure
Of our Father's love

Great is the measure
Of our Father's love
So great is the measure
Of our Father's love

How could I forget His love
And how could I forget His mercy
He satisfies 
Satisfies
He satisfies
Satisfies
He satisfies my desires

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace
That's brought us through
For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure
Of our Father's love

Great is the measure
Of our Father's love

Written by:

Walt Harrah  God's love is so great. Beyond great. Matthew 6:33  New Living Translation Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.  Slowly but surely I am letting go of my desire and focusing on Him only. 😀😀  Happy blessed Sunday.

Sensitive people are rare

Sensitive people are really special people.
The feel deeply, they love deeply and they get hurt easily too.
It took me some time to accept I am one of them.
I saw it as a weakness because I always trust easily, only to be used and hurt multiple times.
I am still searching,
For a genuine friendship
A love worth waiting for
I guess I have searched at the wrong places and trusted wrong people.
I always think to myself, when I meet someone else they would be different, but they were all the same.
Their friendship only lasts as long as they needed me.
I give too much, I am too loyal.
In society I can be labelled as a fool.
I refused to believe it, but as time passes, I learnt the hard way that good people nowadays are like finding a needle in a haystack.
I saw this on Facebook and it just struck me, because it was exactly what was on my mind.

Shared from Facebook (A gleam of dreams)

Sensitive people are the most genuine and honest people you will ever meet. There is nothing they won’t tell you about themselves if they trust your kindness. However, the moment you betray them, reject them or devalue them, they will end the friendship. They live with guilt and constant pain over unresolved situations and misunderstandings.

They are tortured souls that are not able to live with hatred or being hated. This type of person needs the most love anyone can give them because their soul has been constantly bruised by others. However, despite the tragedy of what they have to go through in life, they remain the most compassionate people worth knowing and the ones that often become activists for the broken-hearted, forgotten and the misunderstood. They are angels with broken wings that only fly when loved.. 🌿❤️



I know life is hard. I know sometimes you feel like giving up: on people and on yourself. I know you have good days and bad days but more bad than good or so it seems. I know everyday you question yourself “what is this all for?” ,”am I making the right choices?” or “am I supposed to be here, now?”. I know you have more questions than answers and most of the time you don’t even know how to explain them.

I know life is hard, but you have to keep going. You have to rise above the waters of your soul, and bloom, no matter how hot the fire is. No matter how many arrows you carry on your back, believe me, you’re a warrior. You’re a soldier filled with both pain and love. And life, well, life is just another beast you were meant to tame and there is no one better for the job, other than you.. 🌿

So now I have learnt, I MUST learn to love myself. Because no one will do it for me. In this world where love is scarse and trust is like an alien word, I must learn to pick myself up and be more independent than ever. But in my heart, I never give up and secretly pray to find the one person I believe God will let me meet when the time is right. The person that will love me, and have my trust and he/she can trust me too. Be it a friend or my other half, I believe there are also people like me who are waiting for something genuine in this broken world.